My Cruel & Lovin Summer

Many have wondered how was my Summer. And all I can think about is that song from the 80's "It' a cruel, cruel Summer. Leaving me here on my own. It's a cruel, cruel Summer."

I rather had hope I had a Summer lovin. But unfortunately it wasn't. Summer was cruel and not to kind to me.

It's not that I blamed Summer for my problems But it was what happened during the days of Summer that had turned my life to almost a 360 degree turn.

Like I mentioned in my Time Warp Wives October letter and comment I had to take a much needed hiatus. I had become very sick to the point of going to the E.R. It was like no other thing I have felt before in my life. And up to this day I still don't know what it was.

This all happened during the week of my Retro Fashion Week 2010 event . I was in the middle of my event when I started with a horrendous sore throat. It reminded me of a a strep throat infection several years ago. I had difficulty to swallow , eat, and talk. In the middle of all that I was able to do some of lined up radio interviews for the event, plus some P.R. work while dealing with that throat pain. 

Anyhow to make a long story short this particular virus triggered a bad response to my already fragile frame.

For the past 12 years I had been dealing with a really bad disease called Lupus, which is an autoimmune disease.This disease struck me in the prime of my life. In my case it might have all started with a combination of a virus and antibiotics.

After I had been diagnosed with this disease, my life wasn't the same. Years prior to that I was a healthy and active girl that loved to travel and help others to learn about the Bible. I  wanted to become a flight attendant and to travel all over the world and to meet new people. I had hopes and dreams like any other girl.

After many years of taming the beast I was able to function somewhat as a normal girl. Then about 4 years later everything changed again. That was when I had my first strep throat infection. At that time I was living in Illinois. I was given antibiotics. This "doctor's assistance" had also prescribed a high dose of a Thyroid medication, which almost killed me. Another doctor later told me that I didn't need that medication at all.

So again my immune system was compromised and I started to feel sick again.

Then came the roller coaster ride.

After that last episode I developed IBS and Crohn's disease. Trust me having both of these diseases is like having a two headed Loch Ness monster living inside you!

In my personal experience Crohn's has been the worst one for me. With Lupus I was to able to figure the right treatment for me. And within 6- 8 months the wolf hibernated.

Trying to figure out the best way to treat Crohn's was and it still is difficult and very frustrating. One reason is because one day you may eat on particular food and you are okay. But then two weeks later that same food may trigger a response. I have problems especially with eggs, meats, fruits, vegetables, and the list goes on and on.

I have had Crohn's for the past 7 years. I have tried all sorts of things. Some things were good and other things were not to good. At then end I still couldn't figure out how to tame this beast completely.

Several years ago I found a great alternative doctor here in my home town. At that time Crohn's was slowly eating me away. This doctor saved my life with. IV fluids and this natural treatment that helped my stomach start healing again. After a while I was able to enjoy food again and to have a social life without having to run to the bathroom all the time.

While I was getting better I again had to deal with another blow to my health. In a matter of one year I was involved in three car accidents. The last one totaled our car. And it gave both my husband and I herniated disks. Which at times it makes it hard for me to do any physical activities.

Going back to my throat infection during my cruel Summer days. I thought that this throat infection was going to last a week or so. And then I would get better.

Boy, I was wrong!

This infection ended up making my Crohn's, IBS, and perhaps it awoke my Lupus again. And that was when I ended up going to the E.R.

At the E.R. they ran some test here and there. After they didn't find anything major, they said that I should follow up with my doctor.

Unfortunately for the past three years I have had no medical insurance. Also I haven't had a chance to visit with my natural doctor since my husband first lost his job.

So that was when I decided to come up with a new game plan. I wasn't going to allow this thing to continue taking the upper hand.

I am thrilled to say that this past week I finally came across a natural product that helps folks who have Crohns, Celiac, IBD, and other similar diseases. I have hope that medicine will bring me relief. I can't wait to start the treatment!

The reason why I wanted to blog again during my healing process was because I have missed it. Retro living is one of my favorite things that I love talking about. When you are at home all day with no energy and having to deal with constant pain you start feeling sorry for yourself.

There are times that it is a struggle to get out of bed and to fix breakfast. And to top things out. my house chores are done when it is necessary. Not been able to clean the house the way I am used to drives me bananas! Cooking, clean dishes, and laundry are the only priority right now. And sometimes they are not even done! And the rest of the house just have to wait.

How I wish to have Mary Popins over to bring back some order in my home!

Having to enjoy time with friends and family has also been a lifeline for me. They all have supported me through out this whole ordeal. And I am very thankful for that!

For me the best joy that I could ever feel is to share with my neighbors the hope of a better world.You might one day see me at your door and I will say, "Hello how are you? My name is Carmen Johnson  I am one of Jehovah's Witnesses and I am here today to share with you about a future were sickness and death will be no more."

Like the miners that were trapped in Chile, who thanked God for sustaining them. That hope and faith in God has sustained me through this ordeal and my entire life!

I thank you all for your support and well wishes!

Now let's have fun!

Chao,

Carmen Johnson

All Cakes Considered

Lately I have been having some major craving for cakes. I don't know if it's because it's cold outside or because of hormones. But today when I went with hubby to the market and I quickly picked up a pound cake. I know that a pound cake doesn't sound that exciting. Though for me it's like a big treat!

There are several reasons why we are keeping sweets away from our home. The first reason is because of health reason. For almost over 10 years I pretty much stopped eating cakes. But it didn't mean that I couldn't try other alternatives. Though over time I also had to stopped eating sweets.

My hubby on the other hand could eat everything he wanted. And he still can. Though he is reaching that age where if he eats too much sweets he feels it the next day.

Like the other day he had bought a chocolate chip cookie at his favorite book store. And the next day he had a tummy ache. I had asked him what he had eaten the night before. After he listed all the things he ate he then added, "Oh, and I ate a chocolate chip cookie." Then I asked him, "how big was the cookie?" He said that it was a big cookie. I said, "That is probably why you are not feeling good today. Perhaps the cookie gave you a stomach ache."

What was hubby response? "Oh no I don't think it was the chocolate chip cookie, perhaps it was something else that I ate. But it wasn't the cookie." All of the sudden I felt that I was trying to reason with cookie monster. Yum, yum cookie! At the end I couldn't reason with him.

The story didn't end there. Just last week hubby again had the chocolate chip cookie from the bookstore. And guess what happened the next day. Yes, cookie monster had a tummy ache. And he wasn't happy about it. So I reminded him what had happened before. And do you think that he remembered? Not only did he forgot the incident with the cookie, but he defended it. Yes, sugar can do that to you sometimes.

That is why we refrain from buying certain sweets. It's true that once in awhile we do bring some ice cream for hubby and some Dove chocolates for me. For us it is a sweet-luxury to bring
these items into our home.

This book All Cakes Considered, is a great book for those who love to try different cake recipes. Doesn't these cakes look delicious? Although I don't bake cakes, I wouldn't mind having this book in my kitchen. Perhaps I could substitute the flour and yeast with other alternative ingredients.

Today after dinner we are having several slices of the pound cake. I will have mine with a sugar free strawberry jello. And hubby is going to have his with a sugar free pudding.

I believe in once in awhile having a sweet treat after a meal. And a lot of love in the family!




Chao,


Carmen

Tiffany's & Blue Eye Mask

God morning Holly! by vivien22

These winter blues have finally caught up with me. I totally feel like Holly from Breakfast at Tiffany's. Almost every morning I have been sleeping in until my doggie wakes me up. But instead of strolling down Fifth Avenue and admiring pretty jewelry at Tiffany's, I am strolling down my hallway to my Paris Room and getting my soft blanket, which I bring over to the living room so I can lay on the couch again.

You know that I have felt so relax lately. For several months I had been dealing with stress and sadness that seem not to go away. So I felt that I had to make some changes in how I deal with stresses in life. And trust me there is plenty of crazy stressing things out there for everyone to share.

With the help of my hubby and past experiences I came up with my own anti-distressing to do list. And here it is:

1- Bible Reading Everyday. I have been a good girl in not skipping breakfast and my Bible reading. Reading the Bible is very powerful and comforting at the same time.

2- Can't Watch News. Sorry Anderson Cooper. This one was very hard for me, because I am a girl that cares for what is happening in the world. Though whenever I finished watching the news my mood will go from feeling blue to clinical sadness. Not a good thing.

3- Stretches, Exercise, & Massages. This is a must for me, especially that I had to deal with a back injury from several car accidents. At my therapist I learned some pilates. If I don't do stretches everyday, I am in pain and pretty much miserable. Also I started to do some indoor exercise with my stationary bike. And when the weather is comfortable I take my doggie for a run on my three wheel Bike. We both come back home feeling renewed. Every week I ask hubby for a massage. Even when I don't plan one, it seems like I always need one every seven days.

4- Thinking Positive. Sometimes you can be your worst enemy. And when you are feeling the blues, "Misery likes company". So whenever my thoughts or words start coming out negative, I immediately change the channel. I try to keep my self busy with fun positive things that make me feel relaxed and happy. Although there are times when you can't control the world around you. You can still control how your mind deals with such things. For me this is the most difficult thing in my list.

5- I have to go to bed early. I am still working on that. Hubby comes back from work late at night. And I and doggie stay up waiting for him.


So far these steps has truly helped me. And I feel happier!


This pass week I saw Breakfast at Tiffany's again. I said again because I just finished watching the whole movie a few weeks ago. Then there was Holly all sleepy when she opened the door to "Fred, Baby". And that is when I realized how cute were her Tiffany Blue Eye Mask! I totally love the eye lashes and gold trim! And also she had these stylish looking ear plugs. I actually found a similar eye mask and ear plugs. I have yet to decide if I want to purchase them, or if I can make my own. I think that it would be a good project to do. Anyhow I am too sleepy right now to make a decision.


Darling, I have to tell you that wearing pajamas all day is all so liberating!



Chao,



Carmen

Winter Break & Frozen Strawberries

I hope that you enjoyed your winter break, because I totally enjoyed mine! Can you believe that it was 27 degrees the other day here in Florida. I thought for sure that we were going to have another warm winter. I had taken out all of my pretty winter accessories, and thinking that I might use it once or twice. Boy was I wrong! I am so excited to wear all of my winter outfits eveyday for the past three weeks. Now I am an expert in fashion layering!

Besides enjoying the free air-conditioning, I have enjoyed my free relaxation time. So that is why you haven't seen me around. I have about three major websites, besides my film company and this personal blog. And it is alot of work to maintain them all . Us bloggers also need some time off from writing. It's good for the mind to reboot. But then as a creative person I still continue getting ideas even while I am vacationing. And I think that is when you come up with the best ideas.

The only bad thing about this winter blast here in Florida, is that the strawberries grove is getting hit by the freezing temperatures. It's funny because I have been craving a strawberry banana smoothie for the past two days. Good thing that I have kept some in my freezer. I just need some bananas.


Save the strawberries!


Chao,


Carmen

Photo:Flickr Creative Commons jim68000

Vanity Verses True Prettiness

You know how much I love having a vanity! I am the typical old fashion gal that loves sitting in front of my vanity without rushing. When I am in my Paris room it is my girly time. I can't help it, but I don't like to be rushed when it comes to my beauty routine. Folks, I need concentration when it comes to my hair and makeup. Or else I am going to end up throwing a Miss Piggy fit, and it ain't going to look pretty. That for me is what makes a true lady look her best. Not the way she looks, but the way she acts.

Have you seen the show Bridezilla? Well, no matter how pretty the brides-to-be look, they end up looking like crazed women when they throw their hissy fit. Yikes! Trust me, I had to encounter several of them in my life time.

Like it says in the Good Book, "beauty is vanity". And isn't that true, no matter how much hairspray and jewelry you are wearing! What matters is the inside beauty. That lovable, kind, and sincere person that people want to be with. That, my dear, constitutes true beauty!

If you have noticed in my Time Warp Wives website I have tried to strike a balance when it comes to beauty tips and comportment of a lady. The reason that I do that is because, like you, I have noticed a lack of decency everywhere. You walk down the streets and you see how girls dress and comport themselves. I don't want to blame this lack of decency on one particular person or community.

The society, bad parenting, and a lack of a spiritual compass, have to do in part with how children are becoming. Children learn and imitate from what they see. The things that we are surrounded with are directly or indirectly molding our little ones minds and hearts.

For instance, T.V is a major problem. You can train your child not to watch certain shows. But nowadays the regular family shows are allowing things that years ago were frowned upon. Where did the decent shows go? To whom are the television networks catering their shows? Unfortunately their biggest audience is our children!

There are still people out there that want wholesome programming that they could enjoy without having to constantly switch channels and to avoid indecent exposure. It is true that there are still T.V. channels that show, for instance, Little House in the Prairie and I love Lucy. But does that mean that we have to be stuck watching these same shows, because there is nothing good left out there to watch? Our children and we would like to watch new shows also, you know.

Now there are channels out there that cater to us women. Though what seems to me is that their most popular shows are the ones that make us women look and feel cheap. Every time that I turn around there is another new show with the same concept: Skimpy clothes, foul language, and bad manners. My question is: Where do they find these women?

Even day time regular network shows are allowing words that describe women in indecent ways. In addition, they have to constantly beep out the bad words, or fade them out, which I find very annoying and disturbing! Do I need to use my imagination to fill in the blanks? Are you kidding me? I don't find that entertaining at all!

What are we teaching our children in this generation? That it's okay to wear skimpy clothing, to be rude, and that it's funny when they use foul language? What's going to be next, that it's okay to kill? Which by the way it has become also very popular lately among teenagers. We have to stop this insanity!

One of the questions that I asked folks to answer in my Time Warp Living network site is: What would you like to bring back from the past?
More than half the people answered:

Manners

Morals

Respect

Etiquette


This list may be considered old fashioned, though this is what most people want. People are not animals, as if they have to act on instinct. People were created with a mind to think, to decide, and to reason. I feel for parents out there who are trying to raise a decent and productive human being, because it seems like all odds are against that. But even if that's true, you can make a difference in how you raise your family.

So it is not popular having good morals anymore. That is how Rome fell, didn't it? The very essence of society is composed of strong families that abide to decency and rules. If there is no barometer in our society, what would it become?

That is why this year I have decided to use most of my time and efforts to encourage families to again read and study the Bible. This book might be five thousand years old, but it's advice and principles are superb and never outdated. Those who follow what is written in the Bible are the best well behaved and mannered citizens that you have ever met!

I am happy to be part of the next generation of law abiding human society that will live in love, peace, and unity!



Chao,



Carmen

Liz Eyebrows & Prints

Lately I have been a bit under the weather. Just feel like staying on the couch and wrapping myself with a soft blanket, while enjoying some great movies on TCM. And that is what exactly I have been doing this whole week!

These past several days I have watched some great movies with Elizabeth Taylor. She is not only a great actress, but she is and was very stunning in her early years. Being that I am also brunette like Liz, expect of course I don't have her violet color eyes. I try to learn how she wore her hair and how she did her makeup. I thought I had all her beauty tricks down, until I watched her movies this week. I came to realize that their was one thing that I didn't paid attention. And that was her dark thick eyebrows!

Like any classic girl I do pencil my eyebrows. I would usually use a light to medium brown pencil. Though I haven't tried to darken them and to make them thicker. I was always afraid to end up looking like a smurf.

So I went ahead with the experiment and started to fill my brows with a black liner. Yikes! It turned out way too dark!

On my second attempt I went for a dark black pencil. It look well, so so.

My third attempt I used both the eyeliner and then a dark brown. And it was starting to look better.

Then one day as I was ready to go out I tried a dark brown pencil. And it turned not perfect, but pretty, which is decent enough for me.

So as I work on my eyebrows and trying to figure the best classic look for them, I came across these cute prints. At first I thought that it was Miss Liz Taylor, but then as I took a closer look I realized that it wasn't Liz.




I was a bit disappointed, but then realized that I am blind retrochic gal with a huge eyebrow problem!

Still though aren't these prints so retrochic? I totally loved them! And if you are feeling like me under the weather and want to keep cozy and warm why not get one of these stylish hot water bottles.

I believe that a girl should always look stylish no matter how crabby she feels. Don't you think?



Chao,



Carmen

Photo: Creative Commons

The Blues Walked in

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...and met me.




Chao,



Carmen

Always be Remembered

This past weekend I lost my dear grandfather. My heart has been saddened this whole weekend by his passing. When I saw this picture from Creative Commons, it reminded so much of my grandfather. Even though he was very old, he was always young in heart, intelligent, and very funny. He was always ready to travel, to have fun, and enjoy life!

My grandfather loved history. His grandchildren use to love to gather around him and listened to his interesting stories. He also loved music, planting, and he sure loved to play dominoes. Whoever visited him, he would challenge them to a game. He loved a mental challenge. No wonder his mind was always sharp and alert through out his life. He was the kind of person that was always doing something. He was a busy grandpa.

One of the things that I would always cherished about him was that he loved having people around him. He loved having visitors and conversing with them. At times when he was by himself he was doing something creative.

My grandfather had a long and rewarding life. He almost lived to be 100 years old. Almost a century! He saw the raise and fall of governments, wars, and even fashion. He was around when there was no T.V. When there was shows on the radio. When T.V was first black and white and then colors. And when the internet became the new T.V. No wonder he had stories to tell us!

My grandfather worked hard while raising his family of 16 children. My family come from a humble place where water and electricity was not always available. Working in a third world country and raising a large family was hard back then. We always admired him and our grandmother for raising a big family.


My grandpa lived to see his 50 plus grandchildren and great grandchildren.


He will truly be missed by all...



We love you grandpa!



Chao,



Carmen

Self Service is for the Birds!

Today while my hubby and I where in the gas station, I happened to see a lady using a tire gauge. I thought for a moment how I admire an independent woman that knows how to take care of her car. And the reason that I thought this was because I am not such a woman.
If I ever have to air up my tire, I will be an a pickle!

You see even if I know how to air up my car, I rather not do it. And that goes for anything that is involved with car maintenance. I don't intend to learn how to use a tire gauge, air up my tire, much less change a tire.

Even when it comes to gasing up my car, I rather have somebody else do it for me. The gas fumes make me dizzy and I don't like that I have to touch the "thingy" hose (hubby just told me it's called, nozzle). Everytime I have to gas up my car I feel like I need to go home and take a shower. I can't help it, I am a girly girl.

Scenario: Here you are about to go to a job interview. You noticed that your gas is low. You drive to the cheapest gas station. You get out of your car wearing your favorite shoes. You gas up the car, gasoline drops fall on your shoes and your life is ruined!

Wish: That somebody was there to help you.

Solution: Please bring back the boys! Bring back the full service gas station attendants!


Wouldn't it be nice to stay in your car and have somebody take care of the dirty job? I know that you have to tip these hard working boys. Though it would be worth every dollar that you give them!



Full Service Please!



Chao,



Carmen

Photo: Creative Commons

Call me Victoria Jones!

I love weekends because it gives me time to reboot my mind. What does a girl to do when she wants to relax? Well, I for one love music. Right now I am enjoying a little bit of oldies before I watch the online Cicada Club performers. I am listening to Bing Crosby, the Andrew sisters and Billie Holiday. When I listen to this music I imagine that I am a jazz singer star back from the 40's. And that my name is Victoria Jones. I just love it!

I always wanted to learn how to sing. When I was little, I use to perform. I used to sing and dance in front of hundreds of people. It was fun and it had nothing to do with winning an award of any kind. Over the years, as I got older I realized that my voice needed some real tune up. So while I was in junior high I started taking singing lessons. Unfortunately I didn't continue taking the lessons, and my voice stayed stagnant.

I admit that I don't have a great singing voice. Though I am modest enough to say that my voice isn't that bad either. I know that I have plenty of room for improvement.

Would that stop me from singing? No sir! I don't care if I sound like a shaky chicken or a goose. I am proud of my singing voice. Singing makes me happy. And even if I don't fit the standard of perfect voice, when I sing I am Victoria Jones, and yes I have a beautiful voice that will make you melt like a sundae on a winter's day!


I got to go now the Cicada Club Show is on!



Chao,



Carmen Aka Victoria Jones

Street Artist

The other day I told my hubby that I was ready to start drawing again. For several years I have been creating my retro pop art the Bohemian Girl Collection. It's been a while since I got into my artistic frame of mind. Over the years I realized that I have a short attention span when it comes to my creativity. For instance several months ago, I was in the mood to paint the walls of my house. Sure enough after I completed most of that project I was ready to move on to something different.

Now that I am again into my drawing mood, I am going to start dusting off my drawing supplies and start putting it to good use again. Who knows I may one day be a famous artist working in the streets of Paris!



These street artist from Paris could be one day my coworkers...



So I don't think you need canvas to paint. What a great idea!







Perhaps I could sing a little, that way I get peoples attention. I am taking notes.






What if I lost my voice after I sang the whole week? I would have to move on to Plan B: Wear a stripe outfit, layer my face with white makeup, and smile.



Give these artist a round of applause for their creativity!




Have a fun weekend!



Chao,



Carmen

Photos: Creative Commons

Comfort Food

When I am having a crazy day, I think more about food. Doesn't that happen to you, that If you are having a bad day, that you feel like eating something out of the ordinary? When that craving sets off, I can't seem to be happy until I get that sweet, salty, greasy thing in my mouth.





Today I felt like having one of those nasty greasy cheeseburger that you can only get from a diner, the one that the grease and ketchup drips down your mouth! Yummy!





My favorite of all comfort food is chocolate. And I am sure that that is also a big favorite for most people. There you are working at the office and having to put up with a demanding boss, with rude customers, and with dirty mouth coworkers. Buy the end of the day, you just had enough, and you loudly say, " I need a break!"

Then you end up going to that corner place you see everyday, but you never dared to go in. Then it was that day you had enough, you need that break. "Charlie give me a chocolate malt, triple that! I am having a bad day.

I know that kind of sounds like the add of that one hamburger chain. Though there is something true about this statement, in that when we want a break from our problems we tend to want to indulge in some form of food or drink. There is something in our brain that says, " I am stressed, give me food."

So no matter if you have a leaking roof right in the middle of your living room, you are happy because you just had the best french fries in your life! Who cares about the leaking roof, look I am a happy and I have a wonderful life!

There is something about comfort food that no medicine can fix. And that is,


it sure taste good!



Chao,


Carmen

P.S. I took the idea of chocolate malt from the scene of Back to the Future, when Marty's dad George was going to ask Lorraine to the dance. I just love this movie!

Photo: Creative Commons

A Walk in The Park

On Friday hubby and I with doggie took a much needed walk in the park. I love spending quality time with family surrounded by nature. And now that the weather is cooler, I can't wait to do more outdoor activities! I am so fascinated with nature. I love to day-dream of a future day when people will live in harmony with nature.

In the meanwhile I am soaking up the beauty of God's creation, and imagining that
that we spotted far off a castle, that sat so pretty like a jewel in a garden...

just day-dreaming!



Enjoy your weekend!



Chao,


Carmen

Photo: Creative Commons

Simple Living

What little girl haven't dreamt of living in a castle? Every little girl wanted to be Cinderella, to find that prince charming, that by the way had a lot of money, and to live happy ever after in a huge castle. I for one was also that little girl that dreamed big!

I love visiting castles! I think that they are fascinating, elegant and HUGE! Castles are hugemongus. You would have to have a "Where am I" map just to find the ladies restroom. Yes, eventhough I love castles, If I was given one, I would turn down the offer.

Don't get me wrong, castles are dreamy! They bring us back to the times of Kings and Queens and horses and gardens, and a lot of toilets to clean, if there were any. I have to admit that the first thing that comes to mind when I see a castle is, " What a lovely musuem this is, good thing I don't have clean this place."

For me a castle is not really a "home". My concept of a home is cozy, comfortable and unpretentious place. The same goes to big houses or mansions. Some of these places have ten bedrooms, six bathrooms and a four car garage. Unless you had multiples and you have your own t.v. show, there is no need to get a house with that many rooms!

I think that the reality of the matter is that we don't need to reach for that castle, have a lot of money to be truly happy. And if we come to think of it, are the people living in these big mansions any more happier than the regular folks? On the contrary the saddest and unhappiest people are all alone in their big houses. Money can't buy happiness!




I for one would love to live in a cottage, somewhere where I can grow my own vegetable garden, and watch butterflies and little animals coming to my door... come to think of it, I ended up being more like Snowhite instead of Cinderella.

I am so greatfull that I have a great and loving marriage, drive an old car, live in a tiny home, live a simple spiritual life, things that which have made my life happy and truly rich!



Chao,



Carmen

Photos: Creative Commons

Why Can't a Woman be More Like a Man?

Many years ago my hubby said that he wanted his own room, a guys room. So when we bought our first house and he got his guy room, he was the happiest hubby in the world! For a male it is very important to have a place to unwind and be themselves, where they don't have to think, or have to analyze things. I have always thought about that a man's brain is like a computer that needed to reboot, so that is can function better.

What about us gals? Why can't we give ourselves permission to unwind? I am not only talking about relaxing in a physically kind of way, but mentally. Do you find yourself going through a "to do list" in your mind, while you and your hubby are having a romantic time together? I know what you mean, you don't have to explain, I have been there! And it is just unacceptable.

Recently I found out the answer to this million dollar question, "Why do women worry too much?"

And the answer is, our brain. Yes, ladies, scientist have recently discovered that the area where the brain registered the worry factor that is much more developed in women than in men. They actually showed a comparison picture of the female and male brain and showed that the female worry factor was the size of a pear, while the male was more like a size of a grape.

Now, and that doesn't stop there. Have you gals find that if you had a argument with your significant other that you stay upset longer even after several hours later when the matter have been resolved?

ladies, there is another scientific explanation for that. The reason why females stay upset longer than their male counterpart is because of chemicals. It seems like the "upset chemical" stays longer in our bodies, than that of a guy. Go figure, no wonder I am such a unhappy worrywart, unlike my happy hubby, who knows how to really relax and have a good time, and say, "Ain't nothing but a thing."

Boy, I am jealous!

This reminds me of the song in the movie of My Fair Lady where professor Higgins sang, "Why can't a woman be more like a man?"

And the answer is, well I supposed that it would be very boring and what would be the fun of that?

So here I am in my Paris room and giving myself permission to unwind.

It's good to once in a while to think like a guy, relax and take it easy and without a care in the world, but then of course somebody have to do the worrying. And I am afraid that that would be me!


Oh, well I can't help it, I am a girl!


Chao,


Carmen

Time and Reality

I have been always fascinated with clocks. The mechanical aspects of how clocks works have always intrigued me. Besides how the clocks work I enjoy watching and hearing it's sound. As a fan of all things old, I love walking down a city street and seeing an antique clock. There is something nostalgic about an old street clock that a digital clock can't beat, and that is beauty!




Have you ever been to Down Town and admired that digital clock on a building? And said, " wow, that's a fine looking digital clock." It's true that a digital clock is easier to read. And especially in the hectic society that most of us live in, many of us don't have the time to stop and read time.
And what's even more crazier than that, is that we don't even take time to stop and enjoy life, the real things of life! When was the last time that you actually stopped and smell a rose, or any flower for that matter?





It's sad that most of us don't enjoy things that make our lives truly enjoyable. And what makes things worst, it that our lives have not only become hectic, but that at the same time our lives are filled with non- essential things, that keeps us from enjoying the real things of life. People don't sit down anymore at the diner table and enjoy a meal together. Instead everyone seemed to be more in tuned to the t.v., computer or talking on the cell-phone instead to interacting with the people around them.




When I saw these pretty clocks it reminded me of the"Alice in Wonderland" movie when the rabbit said, "I am late I am late for a very important date". The rabbit on the movie didn't have time to spend around and talk to Alice, at the same he was running late for his important date. So the rabbit wasn't really here, nor there. His rushed time schedule didn't allow him to enjoy special time. He was too busy to think what really matter to him.

This weekend I am going to do just that. I have a very important date to attend. I am going to spend quality time with friends and family in learning about the real purpose of life and the universe.


Its great to keep on the watch about the most important things of life!


Take time to smell the roses!


Chao,



Carmen

My Shoe Dream

I have been crazy these days trying to look for some decent black 5 size shoes! In actuality, I am really size 4 and a half. I know, I have the smallest pair of feet in the world. The reason why I am looking for a 5 size shoe is that I kind of gave up looking for a size 4 and a half womanly shoes! Evertime I go inside a shoe store and came out empty handed, I end up throwing a Miss Piggy fit.

Awww!

Now that that's off of my chest. I could go ahead and talk about these lovely shoes that I found at Etsy.



Aren't these shoes cute? I love these shoes because they are so Parisian looking. I just love black and white shoes. These shoes come with the dotted lines, which is so vintage looking. The curvy details both in the cut and shape of the shoe adds that feminine touch. And even though these shoes come with a thick buckle they still look womanly.




I can just imagine myself walking on the streets of Paris on day wearing this pair of shoes. How elegant and poised I would look. I would just fit in perfectly with the ladies of Paris. I would spot a cafe down the street and walk toward it, then probably stumble and fall on my tush. People would be so friendly and run towards me to pick me up from the lovely cobblestone street.

Then people would be asking me, "Mademoiselle, are you alright?"

"Merci oui," I would bashfully say.

Then an older shoemaker would approach me and say, "Don't worry Madam, I will help you."

Then this older shoemaker would invite me to his shoe shop. As I would sit with a cup of coffee while I watch the shoemaker repairing my shoes. Then a few minutes later the shoemaker would hand over my shoes.

"Madam, here are your brand new shoes."

Then as I get my shoe back I realize that the sole hasn't been repaired. Then I ask the shoemaker why he didn't repair my sole.

"Madam, the problem with your shoes was not the sole. It was the size. You see, these lovely black shoes that you saw at Etsy is not your size. They are a size 7. Madam, I had to stuff your shoes so that you would not fall again."

I would have to contain myself so that I won't throw a Miss Piggy fit. After all its Paris.

Than I would thank the shoemaker. And as I would leave the shop I would say:

"Now, sir, I have a question. Why do you keep on calling me Madam and not Mademoiselle?

"I saw your wedding ring. So I knew that you were a married woman."

I would be mesmerized.


The lesson of this story is, I can't continue stuffing my shoes and I am not a Mademoiselle!

I just want a decent black pair of shoes with a perfect fit!


Am I asking for too much?

I Don't Love Cooking?

This weekend we finally went to see Julie & Julia , and we loved it! This movie was exquisitely delightful. Meryl Streep was wonderful in playing Julia Child! Most of us know Julia Child from her T.V cook shows. She taught people for many years the art of cooking. But who really was Julia Child, you might have asked yourself? Who was that woman behind her pots and pans wearing her apron and pearls around her neck? And how did she got to be that great chef?

Julia and her husband lived in Paris back in the 40's. Julia loved Paris! She loved the warm, friendly people of Paris. Julia's husband was known for his sophisticated palate. And it was him that introduced his wife to fine cuisine. So they both loved going to the different Parisian restaurant and savoring the foods and ... what am I doing! I don't won't to spoil the movie for you! So you just have to go and see the movie.

So anyhow I want to tell you what happened after we saw the movie.

After leaving the movie theater I was so inspired! I told my husband that I can't wait to go home and start cooking like a chef. I told him that I just love cooking.

My husband then looked at me and said,

" You, love cooking? You don't love cooking. If you loved cooking you will do it all the time."

" I love to cook. I love to learn to do different recipes. And experiment different things," I said.

"You might "like" to cook. But you don't love it."

"I don't love cooking?"

"Was this true?" I asked myself. I have always wanted to be the perfect housewife that love to cook. Cooking is one of the most important thing in being a housewife. Here I was feeling like a featherless chicken ready to be gutted. Then as I thought more and more about my feelings about cooking. I came to realize that I find cooking interesting. But I didn't find it that interesting- crazy- exciting-drooling- over- it- kind- of- thing . No wonder Time Warp Wives documentary was so inspiring for me. Deep down inside, I wanted to truly love every aspect of being a housewife, that will include cooking.

Than reality sat in. "I don't love cooking."

I felt ashamed of not really loving to cook. Just thinking about this, makes my stomach feel yucky.

Don't get me wrong. Most of my housewives duties I truly enjoy. And there are things that I wish that I could do better. Like for instance, washing dirty dishes right after supper. Now that is something that I don't like doing. I have to confess, I am guilty of leaving greasy plates and pans in the sink until the next day! It is hard sometimes to keep up with my dishes. And there are several reasons they don't get done.

1- I don't have a working dish washer machine.

2- I have a herniated disk on my back after having three car accidents in one year. Standing in one place for ten minutes is very painful.

3-My husband use to help me with the dishes. But lately he hasn't. And I feel that this is my duty and not his. I know, I am old fashion when it comes to certain things.

So I might not absolutely love to cook . And I definitely hate washing dishes. I still don't want to give up in that one day I will be able to start Mastering The Art of French Cooking. So even though me and Julia Child don't share this enthusiasm of cooking, she did have something in common with me. And that is our love for Paris!

So Bon Appetite to you!


Chao,


Carmen

Look Mom, No Makeup!

Most of the time, believe it or not, I don't wear makeup. Don't get me wrong, I do love makeup and I do love getting all dolled up and ready to hit town. After all I am a girl! Though most of the time when I am home, I love the feeling of having a clean face. You know that feeling when after having a long day and you take that cool shower and feel your skin coming alive again.



There is more behind that clean feeling whenever I remove my makeup. I get a sense of freedom, a sense of serenity, of being in peace with my own skin. For many women though makeup becomes their safety blanket. I was amazed of how many times I have heard of wives not letting their husbands see them without their makeup. And all I can think of that do men really care? If our husband married us, was it because our makeup? Or was it because of who we are as a person, that made them fall in love with us?




Recently I saw a documentary of Marilyn Monroe in which they mentioned that when she wasn't working that she loved going out to town without any makeup. Marilyn Monroe became that glamours image that Hollywood wanted. Though for Norma Jean, they were times that she craved to be that girl next door. That girl that many man would like to talk to, without being intimated by her. That girl that was in tuned with herself.


I love being home and being the girl next door!


And even when I do get all dolled up, I want to still be that girl!



Have a great makeup-free weekend!